My healthy heart

I went to PN today and had the echo scan which showed my heart is very healthy. In fact the technician was sick so a Cardiologist did the scan and she said my heart is "PERFECT"..(she also told me to look after it and lose weight and have less stress..so she's not stupid hmmm. I knew that)

It's a huge relief. An HUGE relief. She said chest xray's are not reliable and my heart isn't even enlarged!!??? What do you rely on these days??

I don't blame my Dr for being cautious though. I am very overweight and have been under enormous stress the last two years so a likely candidate for heart attack or stroke. (Whoops she didn't rule out Angina.. I have to have a exercise test to rule that out.. but I'm not going to pay for it. I'll wait and I'll get fit and slimmer slowly but surely.

I am just relieved that the chest pain and breathlessness I've been having is just due to stress at work and seasonal asthma (which is what I thought I had anyway).

And today my heart goes out to my dear friend at Little Bear Studio. Carolyn and I grew up next door to each other till we both left home. Sadly her dear Dad passed away yesterday from cancer. Nothing makes it easier to lose a loved one even when they're suffering. It's a relief to know they are at peace but it's still final. REST IN PEACE UNCLE ALLAN. (We grew up calling our neighbours who were wonderful friends.. aunties and uncles as a sign of respect.. and I still think of them all that way.)

It was another lifetime living when we were children, in our street. We went to one neighbour to get our teeth pulled out or have our hair cut, our Mum's met for morning tea's and knitting!! we skipped on the street because the cars were much slower... we used to go on bike rides and be away most of the day.. our parent's didn't worry till dark. But my Mum is the only one that's still living in the same place.

And it is nearly a year since my own Dad left us.. how fast it's gone and yet he is around me everyday. Every rose bud, every sunny day, the views of the hills... he saw the beauty in everything and I think of him everytime I see something beautiful, in fact I think of him everyday. I still miss him dearly.

I love Josh Groban's song " To Where You Are" which we played at his service

"Who can say for certain

Maybe you're still here

I feel you all around me

Your memory, so clear

Deep in the stillness

I can hear you speak

You're still an inspiration

Can it be (?)

That you are mine

Forever love

And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are

Beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight

To see you smile

If only for awhile to know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

Are you gently sleeping

Here inside my dream

And isn't faith believing

All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you

Just one beat away

I cherish all you gave me everyday

'Cause you are my

Forever love

Watching me from up above

And I believe

That angels breathe

And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up

To where you are

Beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight

To see you smile

If only for awhile

To know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

I know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are