But yesterday he said those three little words
"You're ALL CLEAR!!"
I'm never quite sure whether I should tell everyone this good news or not considering some women don't get it so good but it is a huge relief. He also admired my new 'boob' and said it was the best one he'd ever seen as the tattoo and new nipple just finish it off and it is a near perfect match symetrically .. they both hang down the same distance!!! hehehe.. It bought the biggest smile to my face and even if he says that to all the woman he sees it really made my day! (My ex bf saw it for the first time 6 months after the op and asked me to keep my bra on..hence he was asked to leave and I have been sworn off blokes ever since!)...
My dearest uncle has been told yesterday the cancer has spread rapidly and is now further up his spine, tumours in his lungs and it's in behind his right eye. I am so saddened that he has to suffer this and I pray, I really do, that God will spare him this pain and take him quietly in his sleep one night. He is moving from hospital to rest home care this weekend, luckily to one my dear friend Margaret manages so I know he will be well looked after. So so sad though as he was so independant until a few weeks ago and now he can't even read the paper.
I talked to my lovely young, old boss today.. DCR's hubby too, and we chatted about all the loss and grief I have had in the last 3 years... it just doesn't stop. I said to Stew that I must be mean't to learn from it and help other people.. Stew's remarks were "You're getting really good at it now". Haha... I don't think I could ever work in a hospice though??/
But all my loved ones I've lost in the last 2 years have been really 'nice' people.. never hurt a fly, never spoke a bad word about anyone, always been there for others and loved and gave and loved some more. So my mid year resolution is to carry on like them and to try and be a really 'nice' person as I grow old. I'm starting to feel like people in the big smoke really 'like' me now and I'm feeling more settled too (a little white pill everyday helps too but who cares!)
And on that note I'd better go to bed or my new resolution won't start tomorrow haha..